Just A Crack?

When you’re done with someone do you delete or block ? Do you close the door, or leave it open?

Me personally I have such a hard time closing doors completely on people. I leave a little crack. I know it’s not the best habit. It’s a part of me that I’m working on.

I’m guessing it’s because I have a hard time forming a good connection with anyone in general. When I build such a connection that you ( no matter who you are), have the power to hurt me. Then I’ve built a strong connection with you. And again, that’s not easy for me to do.

I’m not a charismatic extrovert. I don’t just go around building good connections with everyone. So when I find one, I wanna hold onto it. So, should I close the doors? Hell yes! I should slam them shut. But there’s that fear. That fear that if I close door, after door, after door, that there will be no more doors to close. Because there would be no one left that I have a good connection with. Fast forward to me dying alone with no one who gives a fuck about me.

Closing doors completely and dying alone, these are fears. Where there is fear, there is faith. Faith trumps fear every time. I’ve been making it a goal of mine to not allow my fears control me. That’s why I’m demanding strength from myself to close doors. And I’m doing that by doing something as simple as blocking someone.

– That LoOpy Chick🔮🍸🔮

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That LoOpy Chick

I’m a 27 yr old woman from the Midwest. This site is a documentation of my crazy and all that it entails. Whether it’s me fighting myself, thinking out loud, or the “Grand Epiphanies” that I have every other week, it will probably be posted here. Why would I post all of it? Because it’s fun and I like it!

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